Happy new Week to the beautiful souls that are following me along this journey of blogging.
I just really, really want to thank every person that takes the time out of their day to read this blog. I can’t even express how grateful I am to those of you that take interest in helping me pursue my dream!
sweater: BP. [similar here, here & here] · shorts: Levi’s old [similar here & here] · sneakers: GAP [similar here] · fedora: ASOS old [similar here] · clutch: COACH old [similar here] · earrings: Forever 21
Forewarning: This post is about to get sappy and intense. Well, for me it is. You get to just read and laugh at my “mom feels.” I don’t know what it is, but after having a baby I have become a big gushy cry baby about EVERYTHING.
There are so many days that I catch myself down in the dumps. It’s been so difficult to put the time and energy into creating this business. It sounds so silly to say that because most people don’t even realize that my blog IS a small business! This is what I want to do with my life. This is the career I have chosen to pursue, and it’s not easy in any way.
It happens, too often lately, that people will ask me when and if I will be going back to school. They tell me I’d be good at something in the fashion realm (I majored in apparel studies), not realizing that I am already pursuing my dreams in the fashion world. It’s hard to try to explain what a blogger does to people like my grandparents, who don’t even understand how to turn their own WIFI on.
It’s not just the older generation though, some of my friends don’t follow or even support me in my decision to start a blog. It can be disappointing to see when people you love and thought loved you back unfollow or unsubscribe to your dream, but you can’t stretch yourself so thin in the hopes of pleasing everybody. People will come and go and sometimes it’s very hard to say goodbye, but it’s the family and friends that always believed in you that count.
The frustration of starting a blog/small business without having anything to show for it after investing a good chunk of cash into it had started to take a toll on how I viewed myself as a person. Why wasn’t I good enough? Why weren’t my friends and family taking interest in my goals? How could I change to appeal to the people that “unfollowed” my social media accounts? Why weren’t people staying interested?
All these questions started to overcome all the joy I felt for blogging! All the hard work and compassion I had for this business weren’t being valued or even recognized by myself. I got into a slump and only ever compared myself to successful bloggers who were skinnier, had more expensive wardrobes, went on vacations, lived fancy lifestyles, and were all the things that I was not.
It was so unhealthy. I had lost a good amount of weight during my 30 days to healthy living with Arbonne, and I wasn’t even proud of all I had accomplished anymore. I stopped caring and stopped worrying about my health. The weight stopped coming off, and that made it even harder to find any success in myself. (I’m on week 2 of my restart.)
My blog posts started to suffer due to my petty behavior and emotions. Every post started to become less original and less interesting. And for that, I apologize to my amazing followers and subscribers, and would just really like to thank those of you who have stuck with me!
I have had a great epiphany and am ready to start over with hard work, dedication, and determination to make this business what I want it to be without comparing my process to anyone else. No more pity-party. The big girl panties have been pulled up and the creative thoughts are finally coming through!
But, I wouldn’t have been able to have this epiphany if it weren’t for your readers. My number may have taken a great hit and they may continue to decrease, but I know that my business will eventually take off! I’m only in the fourth month of the year, and I know by the end of the year I will look back at this little slump and be grateful that I didn’t give up.
I have a couple surprises in store for the blog including a future giveaway to giveback to my faithful readers, it should be up within the next month or two, so stay on the lookout for that and more to come!
Here’s a little awkward picture to send you on your way. Talk about “Grandma Butt.”
xo, Tay
